Agnostic me

Every individual is born in a religion. Everyone follows the practices that has been taught to him. We follow it without inhibition.
 
As a child, one learns from the people around him. In fact, we all learned from our own environments. Our personality shaped based on the surrounding, environments, experiences , impression that we had had over a  period in this life.

I do not know why religion came into existence. Sometimes, as i am growing, my mind question me what is religion. Why am i following a particular religion. Sometimes, i feel i have been following because it is now in-built in me.

In case, as a kid , I was not introduced to any particular way of reaching the almighty , would I had believed in him or not ? There is really a lot of confusion in mind. It feels thing that i have become a agnostic. Is it or is it not ? Is it only me who faces this question or there are other who face the same dilemma ?

I have become agnostic. The threads that connect me to God seems to have been blurred. I can feel his presence but do not know that way to reach him.

Sometimes, I do question myself, have i met someone who has actually seen the almighty. They all say there is almighty but haven't met someone who had seen him.

It would have been great if we all knew that following a particular method of practice will help you reach the almighty and probably, be at peace with oneself.





 

Thought of the day

The unhappy days

It is an important day of life. It is the birthday of some I am close to. But, I had a fight with him last night, The deep emotional thoughts went to the night . There was emotional despair, distress, loneliness and in all an unhappy day.

Although, I did not want to spoil the person's day, still, the unspoken words, the quietness and the silence between us spoke more than any of the words that could have been spoken between us as arguments. This is not one of the instances where we fought. It was only one of those instances where we it seemed , we almost fought everyday.

Great distress and Great unhappiness. Lots of silence between the  two of us. I feel like being emotionally drained out , quite unhappy, restless and troubled. My mind is not at peace.

Am I Ok , really ??

I ask this question to me. Am i losing my mind. I feel so stressed out that feel like being irritated at the drop of a hat. Life seems to be an unnessary baggage to carry and at one point who seem to feel, why are you there , why why???

One thing that i really want is peace. Peace with myself, please with my surroundings  and peace within self, THE INNER SELF.....

Will I be able to achieve it, don't know.